Have you ever had someone in your life that you outgrew? You were being called to heal your heart, get your life in order, and that person just didn’t fit any more?
When you feel the call from inside you, you have to respond, and sometimes you have to abandon important relationships that are holding you in destructive patterns.
This was the case in my relationship with Debbie. In our teenage years, Debbie had tried so hard to be something others would accept and like, but it never turned out the way she had hoped. She carried so much pain, and I couldn’t contain her.
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When I was old enough to move away and begin making significant life changes, I left her behind, hoping no one would ever find out about her and hoping she would never catch up with me. I had to abandon her in order to survive.
The other morning while in meditation, I was feeling a presence outside of myself, just to my left side. As I looked to inquire who or what it was, there was Debbie – the persona of my younger self – the young teenage years.
This was the me I didn’t like – not then or ever. I had turned away from her and tried to run away, but all these years later she was still there.
At first it was hard to face. How have I managed to be on this healing path for so long and not make amends with her?
What I had to accept is that she is me – underneath the pain, she is the same seeker of love and truth. She just hadn’t found it yet.
As I faced her, my heart opened and poured out.
“I never meant to deprive you of the love you were seeking all this time. For this I feel a deep sorrow, but let’s not waste any more time.
Please come in. Join me in body and heart. Receive the love I’ve come to know in my own heart – a Universal love that gives love and life to all of existence, beyond comprehension of the human mind.
This love is yours, too. You helped me find this love and healing – all your trials, all your heart aches, all you pain.
I ask your forgiveness. I welcome you in now. Please take this love into your heart and let it heal you. Let it heal us.”
Thank God for love, compassion and forgiveness.
Now that I know, she sits in my heart with me. The forgiveness and acceptance has reunited us as one.
There is never any reason to deny ourselves love – not any part of us. No matter what your mind tells you, you are born to receive and give love with a free and open heart.
I encourage you to find the seeker of love within the disowned parts of yourself, and honor them with love from your own heart.
Of course, if you need help, you’re welcome to contact me. To schedule a free 30-minute consult, just click here, or go to http://ScheduleWithDebra.com.
Blessings and gratitude.
Live & Love Joyfully!
Debra
